Chester Bennington's Death || 20th July 2017

"It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone"

- Easier To Run, Linkin Park

It was 2005. Me, my brother Ron and Rontu were watching a music show where they featured Linkin Park and that was the year when I heard his voice first in my life. The song was "In the end", then they played "Lying from you" 'Numb' 'Crawling' ... And instantly I became a fan of that band. It was a totally new genre to me! Since then I never stopped listening to Linkin Park. I collected their first album "Hybrid Theory" when I was studying at B.S.P.I.

I loved all of the songs and of course voices behind them. Chester's screaming and Mike Shinoda's rap. Me and my brother... we passed our college-University life listening to LP among other bands. My madness about LP was terrific. I used to write their name on my desk, hall room, walls , tee Shirts, Jeans wherever I got chances..... Even I used to say I'll sell my family property to buy the ticket of Linkin Park Concert If it takes.

R.I.P. Chester Bennington

I did this graffiti on my wall and scolded by the landlord a bit.

Usually I dump my old clothing or give away to needy people. But I never dumped this Tee-Shirt. Never....I got this one from my brother Ronel back in 2012 and kept it in my bag since then... Still It's with me.

Hand painted T Shirt

I was performing "in the End" at the 

cultural program of Dept. Of Mechanical Engineering, DUET(2013)

My friend Bijon was with me. Unfortunately I lost the video.

I had a stamp with LP logo which I used almost all of my books and notes back in my University Life. I was just fascinated with LP. 

Chester, Mike, dave, Han, Rob, Brad Delson...... I read about them wherever I got article. I have almost all of their songs, concert videos, music videos, documentaries whatever I got on web and CD shops.... I owned them. I freakingly loved Linkin Park. The only band I never stopped listening over time. Still I listen to their playlist on youtube. 

I was drawing for Bicchu's that night... and I got the shocking news of Chester's Suicide on instagram feed while I was scrolling in my work break at middle of the night. I was shocked as hell and couldn't believe it. Chezy is no more...... I still can't believe it..... I just fucking can't. I can't think of Linkin Park without Chezy's scream. In my life I got hurt by many things, many acts... Chester's death is one of them.

Chester Bennington, thanks for giving me strength with your voice in my darkest times. You will be missed. May your soul rest in peace.